insanitylabs

rather randomly, i end up here exactly a year & a day since my last journal entry.  probably would have been cooler to post yesterday, but as they say...a day late and...well, you know.

much has happened in the days that have passed since my last utterance here.  you know none of it & chances are great you never will.  chances are even greater that it would somehow impact you if you did, so we'll leave it at that.

the one thing i've picked up in this last year that actually means something is this:

"you must be the change that you want to see in the world."

that is all.

Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing
Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect, nor do I strive to be
I am alive in this world of face-first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard for the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race or color
A hallucination if you will
Sneaking into the lives of strangers and letting them fall apart
To a new rhythm, just to feel better
-blue october

This glancing life is like a morning star
A setting sun, or rolling waves at sea
A gentle breeze or lightning in a storm
A dancing dream of all eternity
-loreena mckennitt

long-quiet demons have shaken the dust from themselves...

Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart.
-Marcus Aurelius

Take control of your destiny. Believe in yourself. Ignore those who try to discourage you. Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits. Don't give up and don't give in.
-Wanda Carter

so many twists & turns, so many false starts and dead end paths i've walked.  a little less than a year ago, things were as bad as they could get...the 'now' i sit here and contemplate was unimaginable not so very long ago.  

I seen a girl on a one way corridor
Stealing down a wrong way street
For all the world like an urban toreador
She had wheels on...on her feet
Well the cars do the usual dances
Same old cruise and the curbside crawl
But the rollergirl, shes taking chances
They just love to see her take them all

Hallelujah here she comes...queen rollerball
Enchante...what can I say...dont care at all
You know she used to have to wait around
She used to be the lonely one
But now that she can skate around town
Shes the only, only one
-dire straits